In case you didn’t know, I found out in January that I have cancer – specifically Type II Hodgkin’s Lymphoma.
As you can probably guess that came as a HUGE shock to me to because I’m an otherwise pretty young, healthy guy.
However, as I’ve learned, cancer doesn’t discriminate its victims. And so now this is just simply something I have to deal with and put behind me without hesitation.
Since when I first broke the news to you my dear readers, I’ve received my official regimen of treatments: No radiation and 12 rounds of chemo.
Believe it or not I was actually delighted when I first heard this because everything I’ve read so far suggested that the radiation was one of the toughest things for your body to deal with. Chemotherapy isn’t exactly a walk in the park either, but at least I felt more mentally confident to battle through it.
As of this week I am now 25% of the way done with 3 treatments behind me. I go every other week to receive chemo. So basically this creates one “bad” week when I feel very tired and nauseous and one “good” week where my energy and appetite return, and I feel somewhat normal.
I say somewhat because I’m finding there are a lot of little what I’ll call “annoyances” that you would have never guessed come with the territory. Basically things like:
- Always feeling tired
- Being unable to focus – what some people call “chemo brain” is real
- Never really feeling 100% okay with the stomach; always slightly off
- Having a very weird metallic taste in my mouth the first 4-5 days after chemo
- Not really craving the same foods – or rather foods you used to like leave an undesirable taste in your mouth
- Coffee doesn’t sound good anymore ….
- Your beard doesn’t really grow as fast anymore
- Having strange phantom aches in my upper legs / hips, sometimes so bad it hurts to walk up and down the stairs
- Strange phantom pains in my chest
And then there’s the cosmetic damage – I’ve already lost all my hair! Directly after Treatment #2, it simply started to fall out in small clumps when I’d take a shower. When that happened, I turned to my wife and said “… it looks like its time”. And so we buzzed it all off.
Despite all that, I’m continually reminding myself that this is all for the best. Even though it is depressing to sleep all day or feel nauseous, it’s only temporary. Before I know it we’ll be moving into July and I’ll be looking forward to receiving the all clear!
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